Kira's got the 10 and a half

Okay, I've been a naughty blog mommy
I admit it
but I couldn't blog because......

• I was WAY too happy this winter

yeah, that's right
I was joyfully cozy and extra snuggle-y content
I'm probably the only person in the world who actually didn't want spring to arrive
because winter was so wonderful
look how beautiful it was

•    I was WAY too busy stretching my wings

especially artistically
making things I've never made before
achieving new levels in my mixed media artistic skills
opening myself to whole worlds being downloaded into my creative spirit

•  I was WAY too angry and sad and hurt and defeated from the betrayal of others

 do you think it's a coincidence that on the day I found out someone had stolen from me there were 19 turkey vultures sitting in a tree next to our house?
scavengers 
the people, not the birds
the birds are beautiful
the people......ask me when I'm in a better mood

• I was WAY too in love with art journalling

I don't know how or why I was missing it before,
but not now,
I totally get it

• I was WAY far deep into a seriously committed relationship

with my mechanical pencil
and my paper stump
how could I not be when we can make things like this together

• I was WAY brave and put myself out there to do TWO displays of my work this year

and I'm going to be doing some unconventional advertising for it
which I'm going in with the attitude to have fun with it
and I'm going to be on display with my work to talk to people
which is scarey for me because I am shy

but I'm not really concerned about any of that right now because
I haven't even finished the work for the display which is happening June 1

•  I was WAY too 'ill'

apparently I am being poisoned by my own dental fillings (so are you btw)
I have toxic levels of metal in me that are causing me to have a thyroid problem
so now I'm taking 2 kinds of supplement pills
4 of one kind
1 of another
and drinking some chalky, thankfully tasteless powder in water that is negatively charged so that the metals in my body cling to it
AND I have to take some tin drops which do the same thing as above except with specifically tin
I will have to go and have all my fillings replaced
I wonder how that will go

I really like the doctor I'm working with though

He said I was fun to work with.
He's got the same name as Pop-Tart
Doctor Bob

 speaking of them

• I've was WAY too covered in cat hair

they are like maniacs
but they're cute though
so they can get away with a lot
it's way better than living with kids IMO
cause I can lock them in a room when they're being bad and no one calls the police on me :)

and they also don't go and befriend my ex-frienemies
instead when I'm upset
they sleep in bed with me
even though that makes it harder for me to sleep
I appreciate their efforts

• I was WAY too double-minded

time passes
and sometimes you think
did I make the right decision
and then you join Fakebook and find out things that make you cry
 

and Hubby
who everyone thinks is "such a nice guy"
(only cause he doesn't tell them what he really thinks about them)
lets his inner troll out and says,
"If she wants to roll around in the muck with the pigs, you let her.  Her actions only prove that you made the right decision.  They are all together because they're all the same, they are all PIGS.  You deserve better."
:)
I knew I married the right guy
 
sometimes it's easy to forget that when he murders your plant that you've lovingly taken care of for several years thinking, "This year it will flower"
No.
instead this year it will have to regrow from the ground because he weed whacked it to nothing
but then he comes out with something like "Isn't that always the way it was?  Him first and her in the background?"
so brilliant it deserved a high five

•  I was WAY too full from spending time with God

seeing the patterns in life
things repeating in strange and wonderfully magickal ways
and then he says the patterns have been happening to him too
words being said on the radio as he's looking at a sign for them and such
it means we're going the right way
it means God is saying, "Hi"
or it's a glitch in the Matrix

• I was WAY too interested in the birds and busy feeding them and their other wild friends

like this new bird that showed up called a cowbird

and the hawks that kept coming to kill all the other birds
we counted at least 35 different species of just birds that come to our yard!
(don't forget the skunks, racoons, possums, squirrels, chipmunks, mice, bats, deer, cats, frogs, turtles, praying mantis-es, stick bugs, stink bugs (if you don't have them yet, you will - thank you Japan), rabbits, many other various bugs, foxes, groundhogs......I'm sure there are more......)

btw, the grackle above isn't dead
it just knocked its-self silly on our window

  

• I was WAY too trapped in the past

and going over and over the way my mind does
trying to figure it out
was I the band-aid that didn't work out
I know I was the puppy that grew up into a dog and became less interesting that's for sure
because I was put out in the yard like a dog with the dog
to play alone (except the dog)
in the sand

and ended up getting pinched by pincher bugs because no one was there to protect me because honestly the dog wasn't that good at that kind of stuff
and at the time, I didn't know any better
but now I do
so when I find a pincher bug
I get up and walk away from it and play somewhere else

so then,

• I was WAY too focused on trying to be like this girl and grow a butterfly out of my chest that would sit there and look pretty

but really that's not me
I don't do fake nice
I don't do fake I like the kind of person you are even when I don't
If I don't respect the kind of person you are,
if I find you lacking in the basics of integrity,
I don't want you in my life

I don't have time to deal with the amount of healing you have to do yet refuse to take responsibility for
I have art to make
Captain Nemo said it best, "I hate nothing, I simply reject it."
so the closest I can get to a butterfly out of my chest is this:

I bless everyone who my hubby calls The Pigs
because I LOVE my life
my life couldn't be any more perfect for me than it already is
so, these so named Pigs were part of that
a negative part
but still part
so I gotta bless 'em.
They meant me harm, but they did me good.
which sucks for them cause that means they failed.

and my final excuse for why I was a naughty blog mommy who barely posted at all this year.....
drum roll please...................

• I was WAY too tired from all the stuff I just said and plus the swimming I was doing all autumn and winter long in my heated swim-spa (and still doing)

I'm still working out 4-5 times a week
since we got the pool in September I think
so that's pretty good
haven't really lost any weight
but man you should see my calf muscles!

~magick~
Meliss