Right now is an awesome time in my life. It's amazing how this past year has really filled out and filled in.
First of all, I know the best people. I have the most fantastic friend Sandy and Michelle. Yesterday, they both said the most wonderful things about me and what I'm doing without me asking. They just said it. How fabulous is that? The best part is that I know what they are saying is true, I've been thinking it about myself already, but confirmation from your Sisters is like loads of gorgeous texture on a pretty painting. They really made me smile and warmed my heart. My job is to keep their words in my mind, so when I do hit a snag (and I will) - BAM, I can pull out their opinions to help me battle those demons. BACK!! Back I say!!
I was listening to Sade the other day while working. It reminded me of another time and place.....way back 6, 7, 8 years ago and West Palm Beach FL vacations. I had the very strong feeling of:
wanting to be creative so badly, but not being satisfied with my creativity
being wrapped up in bad relationships and bad friendships
working in hell
being around crazy people and in the dramatic life
playing the part I was cast in
knowing there was peace to be had, but not having a clue as to how to get it
living in crappy apartment after crappy apartment with no space around me, jammed in there
having to share space with living and the little creating I was doing
Then, I realized,
I am here right now, being creative, doing what I've been wanting to do for so long that I never thought I'd be here. Living it. Being it. In a place I love, with lots of space and trees and animals and bugs (some of the bugs I don't like, but they're part of it, so I gotta take them too). Here I am, right now, doing exactly what I've always wanted to.
I was an amazing feeling. There were a lot of things that made the difference, but one huge one was my dedication to the work and the time I put in almost daily.
An Artist arts.
I am an Artist.