I am allowed to be disappointed.
It will not hurt my chances for success.
As long as I don't stay disappointed.
I like being positive, thinking positively,
BUT all this positive thinking stuff can be damaging
and I can see it's one-sided'ness.
There comes a point when I'm not feeling my natural feelings
because others have said or even implied that it will create negative energy
or I'll be 'punished' for not believing something will happen for 5 minutes
out of 24 hours of believing.
Having 100% never wavering faith isn't possible,
it doesn't leave room for human being'ness,
imperfection, real experience of The All.
In my reality, the UN-faith is IN the FAITH.
It's part of it.
Basically, if I don't get to have my dream because I decided that it's okay to feel my feelings....
instead of positive talking myself out of them right away....
well then so be it.
But I don't believe that's the way it works.
It will not hurt my chances for success.
As long as I don't stay disappointed.
I like being positive, thinking positively,
BUT all this positive thinking stuff can be damaging
and I can see it's one-sided'ness.
There comes a point when I'm not feeling my natural feelings
because others have said or even implied that it will create negative energy
or I'll be 'punished' for not believing something will happen for 5 minutes
out of 24 hours of believing.
Having 100% never wavering faith isn't possible,
it doesn't leave room for human being'ness,
imperfection, real experience of The All.
In my reality, the UN-faith is IN the FAITH.
It's part of it.
Basically, if I don't get to have my dream because I decided that it's okay to feel my feelings....
instead of positive talking myself out of them right away....
well then so be it.
But I don't believe that's the way it works.
Having doubts is what brings us to know that we need to have faith. We all have to feel the sad, the mad, the ugly sometimes in order to feel the joyous, the happy the beautiful. It is just as you say, as long as we don't stay there, we can move on towards the dream...You are a beautifully imperfect human being to me.
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I agree with everything Kim above said.
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